So I’ll be bold
As well as strong
And use my head alongside my heart
So tame my flesh
And fix my eyes
That tethered mind free from the lies
But I’ll kneel down
Wait for now
I’ll kneel down
Know my ground
Raise my hands
Paint my spirit gold
And bow my head
Keep my heart slow
Cause I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
You’re Edward Cullen now? Please, don’t be. And nope, you don’t miss me more. -smiles- I’m glad your dad is fine. And uh… I don’t know if you saw Iliana.
Ew, no. I’m not sparkling. I do miss you more, tho.
Uh, yeah. Why?
Right. Well, congratulations. You’re a wizard, Nathan!
Because I should have stayed with you. And what did I do? I got burned. Literally. And then I came back and you were fine with someone else. So I wasn’t needed. I was immature. And not in the right kind of way. I could have done something. But hell, I was scared.
But why are you being so nice to me? You should be hating me.
Oh, great! Where’s my wand?
People make mistakes all the time, that doesn’t mean you have to be so hard on yourself. But this isn’t entirely your mistake because I was the one who was — still is, tho — so stupid and reckless. It’s my fault, too, most of it. So? I’ve seen someone who’s immature - like, really immature. That doesn’t mean it’s all your fault for acting like that, because we’re still human and like I said, we make mistakes. It’s mostly mine, tho. But yeah. It’s okay to be scared.
You’re still my friend, right? Why would I hate you?
Oh you have now? Because you stopped messaging me! -pouts- How’s your father? -smiles- I’ve been missing you too.
Nah, I don’t need planes. I’m flawless, you forgot?
I IMed you once but I saw you sleeping so I closed it. Aaand he’s recovering… Better than before. He can jog a bit now.
I miss you more.
Whoops, silly me.
I knew. She told me. “The boy is alive”. Coincidence she said that. Because she thought I was dead.
Worried? And you think I wasn’t worried? I thought you were dead. And I had to move on. And I don’t get it, why do you even care? It was all my fault anyway! I was a child, I was immature. Instead of holding on I just gave up on everything and tried to kill myself!
I can say I’m okay. I live in here now. It’s not a big family but it’s the closest I can get.
That could mean anything! Like Harry Potter. “The boy who lived” and all that.
How was it all your fault when I was the one who made the first damn mistake? We are all immature in our own ways and hell, I know someone who’s immature and doesn’t change but so what? It’s one of those qualities that make us human, or half-human. Whatever. People will give up at a point in their life and they will just hit rock bottom. Yeah, you tried to take away your life but you’re here now so I don’t see why you have to make a big deal out of it! It’s in the past so let’s forget about it.
That’s good, that’s good.
That’s my boy.
You don’t have to send anyone, I’m not taking your money.
You know you could have teleported here like ages ago cause I’ve been missing you like crazy.
Or you can go to the airport yourself and meet with Hans, if you want to take the plane.
Let’s be honest here, Nathan. I’m no longer a part of your life. Cut the speech. I know about the girl.
I— -takes a deep breath- I was saved from the river of fire, and I was brought to Camp. But then, I hated myself for leaving. So I left again. I lived with my aunt, and she took me here in Seattle. I’m an Amazon now.
You knew— But, I— I just… -sighs-
Oh, so friends don’t count as “being a part of someone’s life”? I’m trying to be a decent human here and ask you how you’ve been doing cause I’ve been worried sick! Do you actually think just because we’re no longer together that I don’t care about you?
At least you’re okay now. I don’t really care if you turned into a dinosaur, so long as you are okay then I’m just relieved.
Are you kidding me?
Well you can teleport yourself here, right?
Or I can send someone to fetch you but do yo really want to wait eight hours to see me? Plus, there’s also the terrible jet lag.
…..Well, true. But I can’t help it! I’m here alone… you know, without Nate… in the middle of a war… -pouts and blinks innocently-
You know I really wish I can teleport right now, buuuuuuut…
I’m not a Hecate kid.
… no no this is not. This is a ghost. -hides-
Ili, please, I can’t— I can’t have anyone else exiting my life.
Talk to me. What— How have you been?